♥, Huihui
Sometimes you know you shouldnt hold on to something , but somehow , you cant let it go too ... i know what i have or must do , but i cant .I tried to.. but i fail . Face it girl , you're a failure. i havent face the truth till now. Avoiding isnt doing me any good, i understand. i've told myself to face it every single day. But i dont hav the guts i guess . I'm afraid i'll cry out when i face it. i'm afraid i'll fail again. i'm afraid of everything.
You'll never know until you tried . hmm..finally understand this. Its hard to forget someone. Its hard to give up on some things . i've name those days as my precious memories in my heart. i wantd to throw those memories away , but i cant bear to throw it. Its like you've used something very long and one day , you gotta throw it away, but you'll still hav feelings on it , and eventually, cant bear to throw it.
so , i'm still hestitating in my heart. Its been so long , i know i cant act on anymore . i'm exhausted. i want to be myself again ! not a fake me . face it bahhs . Nothing will change anymore . Its set . Dont ever dream of anything .
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