Here's something to share about. (:

Sometimes , you could predict some things.
But somehow , you tend to try to stop thinking about it.
And after some time , it happened.

Wht will you do ?

i know its a stupid question . Cause i din say wht happened.
i'm so confused man. I dont know wht i should do and i hav to do.
Why people keep talking about it when i've been trying hard to forget it.
Why am i so silly. The longer i drag the more upset i'll get.
i know i know , i know all this .
But i cant.
I cant stop it.
I cant give up and so on.

' i will give up ' ' i hav give up '

i've been saying this like half year or so alr.
And wht happen ? NOTHING.
i've been lying to myself all this time.
trying to avoid everything.
i knew i cant avoid it everytime.
But wht else can i do ???
i'm going mad alr.
Who the hell exactly knows wht am i going through right here right now.
Who knows how much i've been through till now.
Who knows how sad i felt that time.
How happy i am that night.
How much i cried that time.
How long i took to get over Which i havent.

Can you imagine how hurt i am ? The hurt that you could never forget aft 128 days .
The scar that might even be deeply carved in your heart forever and never be healed.
Who could ever understand it.
I'm such a failure , asshole , bitch . Shit me lohh.
Who else can i blame ? Obviously , the whole thing is just on my own accord.
No one forced me .
So , all i can blame is me .

All i scold is me .
You know how bad you'll feel when you cant vent the feelings out.
I hav to cry in my heart as loudly as i can but none of you could ever realised.

i dont think i can take it anymore. I know i'm going to breakdown any time...
But wht can i do ? i dont know why i cannot give up.
I just dont know.
People ard me just simply giv some bad comments and go off.
You know how much those comments meant to me .
You just open your mouth and say anything .
I could just think of it the whole month.
But still i go on , i tried my best to save this .

And now , i gotta say , i'm tired. Very tired. I dont want to go on. I'm going crazy .
I dont hav a solution about it. I dont want to give up either.

Alrights , no mood to go on , byes.

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